I stopped taking my painkillers on the 7th Feb. I had been trialing all different types of painkillers for about a year. My doctors told me to stop taking them as none of them work and that due to the ones I was on to go down a pill a night as I might struggle to sleep otherwise. However, I did not get warned on the amount my body would fucking hate me. On the 11th I started to feel ill. I felt very dizzy and sick. I wasn’t even able to go to the bathroom on my own as I wasn’t stable enough to do it. So I went to bed thinking the next day I might feel better, I couldn’t have been more wrong if I tried. I woke up feeling very ill and feeling very physically sick. I had a nap and I felt a bit better afterwards and I got dressed. Not even half an hour after being dressed, I was throwing up to the point where it was just stomach acid. I then spent the rest of my day in bed with a sick bowl. I went to bed early and I woke up feeling a bit better the next day. Then I went to bed that night and woke up the next day feeling a lot better. I thought that that would be it. All of it done and over with, that my body had got it’s shit together and I’d be 100% the next day. I was so god damn wrong. I am feeling very ill and keep having to go back to the toilet every five god damn minutes (if you get what I mean). I am just so frustrated with all this bullshit. Not only am I having to deal with my every day bullshit but this on top as well. I am so done with being me it’s just fucking dumb.