I can't do this...
It hurts. Everything hurts so bad and nothing will ever make it stop! I have nobody left to turn to. I may as well just face the facts. I'm pathetic, I let everyone down, I can't keep control of myself, I'll be alone forever and nobody deserves the misery and the pain that I bring into their lives. No wonder I have no friends. I can't trust anyone anymore. Everyone just turns their back on me when they've gotten all they wanted out of me.
WHy can't I just have the guts to end it. I tried so many times and each time I failed. I failed at ending my own life... haha how pathetic is that? Can't even die properly let alone live through this crappy world where everything and everyone is out for blood and will stop at nothing to get what they want from you.
I don't know how much more I can take i really can't handle this anymore. The pain, the guilt, the sadness, the lonliness, the betrayal, the disappointment, everything needs to just STOP!
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE!!