ive emailed the samritians since december 2011 ive tried ringing but it doesnt help emailing is better.
Its never ever going to change im never going to get her back pathetic i know but no-one understands the fight i have had to connect and find a therapist and i cant just find another like that im not like evryone else im autistic so it takes me even longer to form a connection with someone
so if im never going to get her back and she was only hope of gettting me better but too much happened for it to work if only they would give me another chance but they wont so theres no point when i go back they probably wont give me her back so there is no point
. everyone i know is sick of hearing this as this is all ive talked about but i cant help the way i feel
im not worth anyones time or effort.
just wish i wasnt so cowardly just wish i could kill myself right now and if only i could