I dont know but my depression does not seem to have many ups..
Pretending all the time when Im out is also so exhausting it just puts me off living the house. Im so tired of it.
My therapist before told me about the diary. Now that I hear of it again from you and at this c56p moment, I think maybe it is one of those small things I should just put my efforts to.. The trouble is I really dont quite seem to >deal< with things.. They normally just come and then, sooner or later go.. Only sometimes they happen to accumulate and instead of a 'regular' 'depressive' depression I get this devastating feeling..
Will try to make the diary happen though. At least something towards the feeling of hope or feeling better..
I feel less lonely now, still useless idiot, but with not so much pain inside. thank you