If you were still active on this forum I would never have written this. Since you're not, it's just something I had to say to get off my mind. A bit critical yes but I'm not angry, I understand fully how distressed you must have been at the time.
The first regards telling me statistics of suicides in jail. I don't know what possessed you to write that. I was deeply disturbed. The other regards my dosage of AD and not taking the amount I was "meant to" take without anyone ever having told me what that amount was.
Regarding yourself, over the course of 4 years we supported each other constantly but you never actually took my advice. One was listening to the Claire Weekes recordings, which I believe are the best advice on depression and anxiety ever. The other was sticking at meditation, the only natural tried and tested way to cure depression. You said it wasn't for you.
I ought to feel abandoned by your absence but actually I don't. This confirms something we were probably both aware of which was that our mutual supporting had run its course and we were beginning to irritate each other.
If you do return to the forum and read this, it will be because you are in a much better place.
I continue to wish you the best and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.