zaffi20 wrote:Hi i am new here.
7/8 years ago i was sooo down that i wanted to die however cutting myself helped alot by getting rid of the frustration. Then i realized that my kids would have no one as their dad is strict so they cant really open up to him. I wanted to see them grow up. However recently i started my anti depressants not high jst sumthing to help me cope. But these past 3 weeks i have been feeling crap. Huby is being a dick saying tidy up tidy up tidy up... u havnt cooked i work all day n its hard on empty stomach n etc and then what did u cook cant even eat it... yes i am failing at simple wifely duty... it really is my fault my house if filthy cause i cant get myself to do anything... but i am trying little by little but insread of encouragment his like cant live like this i will complain to your family... my family already getting hints by his attotude and comments he makes... i went 2 my dads and thought ill jave dinner and spend time with my niece but my dad for the 1st time asked me if i cooked which i did... then he told me to eat and leave n go to my own house and do wateva cook or clean and that his dissapointed in me. Even today my dad had a go at me saying i jeed to sort myself out b4 i ruin my life.. i dont know how only option is leaving everthing... now i jst want to die and gi e piece to every1... they would cry for abit and then they would be ok.
I am a failure and dirt and filthy and i jate myself.... i know if i sort myself out then everything would be ok... but its tooo hard.
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