Well done to have the courage to post to the forum!
(I still remember the feeling, not very easy and I'm relatively new myself)
Whilst there is obviously a wealth of experience, knowledge, words of support and care available, sadly this forum does not provide a means for registered users to contact others privately.
For me it is speaking to other people that really helps, so I tend to walk miles and miles each day speaking to those I meet appropriately. Some will want to talk, others can hardly manage a hello or any acknowledgement (I just get used to it), in between I listen to music in my ear buds muting when someone I recognise or want to talk to comes along...
As others have recommended on this forum, you could try the frazzled cafe which provides a safe way of speaking and connecting with others, book here:https://www.frazzledcafe.org/meetings
Please let us know how you get on?