It might sound crass, but welcome to the forum
You've done the right thing, recognising that your wellbeing (lets call it that), would benefit from some help and support. Please have a browse around the forum, in the information exchange have a look at some of the useful videos, as these might help you.
As you may have realised already this forum is quite quiet; it also has a re-occurring fault that often prevents updates from users, you may wish to place a post here as well as this forum is much more active. https://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/
Please rest assured though that you are certainly not alone in the way you are feeling. I'm wary of providing support/guidance as this can so easily be misinterpreted, (so please accept my apology in advance!) is there anything that you can think of that would help you to be kinder to yourself as this is not your fault.