I'm new to these forums but I thought it would be a good place to rant .
I have depression anxiety and ptsd. I met my friend 5 years ago and we are so close. Only problem is I love him. Not like as a friend but full on in love with him. It has caused me so much heart break and stress. Has put a strain on the relationship I am in now and my friend knows I love him and his response is our friendship means too much and I dont think of u that way. I feel rejected by him. Because we also sleep together on and off and i dont know why he does that if he doesn't think of me romantically. Is he just being a man and getting his end away cos its on offer? That sounds so bad but I don't know how to manage this situation. I cant not be his friend but I don't want to be in love with him either cos its making me ill and stressed out. Has anybody been in this situation before ? How do I cope. Its been like four years of hell so far.