I have a long and complex history of mental illness which is too long to get into here but my psychiatrist said that I will no longer have any kind of talking therapy or medication. Months ago I was an inpatient in a therapeutic community, but I only lasted two days, I tried to get into their outreach program later but they expected me to jump through hoops and somehow prove myself worthy of their treatment. My psychiatrist therefore thinks that I have rejected the treatments I have been offered but for me that's not the case at all. They expect me to show commitment towards a program by first attending loads of one to one meetings before I'm being offered anything, but I can't possibly do that when I'm at my lowest and everything seems pointless.
I just can't believe that he is happy to leave me without any kind of support whatsoever given my multiple diagnoses of anxiety, depression and personality disorder. At the last minute and only at my request, he referred me to something called the Network, which is more like a social activity program than actual serious therapy, but tbh I don't really see the point, I already did that program years ago and there is nothing I enjoy doing anymore.
They just expect me to change on my own but I can't anymore.