Lozb, you've come here and I've come back to see if you did.
Hope that means someone is thinking about you.
Do please try and talk to someone, alcohol is savage master, however there's people around and I do hear many success stories.
I was talking to a centre manager for a children's centre who told me about a mum who got help and is on the road to recovery, after losing her job and being convicted of drink driving.
A friend of mine has lost over five stone by going to weightwatchers, a man, get out there and being with people.
It's really hard, and depression is a crippling, debilitating condition which saps you of the energy to even try and overcome it.
Take small steps, try a few things, and report back please.