I'm new to this site (or any site like this to be honest). I'm 45 and feel the constant pressure of what life is throwing at me too much to bare much longer. All of which probably down to some poor and very poor choices I'd made in the past but they range from crushing financial problems to an ex-wife from hell making my life a total misery and using my love for the children against me.
I've taken to hating the "comfort" words of "call Samaritans, seek help".. Seek help? How can I see help when there is no one who can help me. No hope and no light at the end of the tunnel. From where I sit now all I see is a devastating train wreck slowly unfolding that will destroy me and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
Heavy I know but I didn't know what else to do. I must get it out.