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e-netsec
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Joined: Sun Jan 13, 2019 1:26 am

After a bottle of wine and 5 pills to sleep

Postby e-netsec » Sun Jan 13, 2019 1:34 am

I don't know why I am feeling this way, I just feel it! I don't know why I am here, but I am.
I just want to go, I don't want to be here and feel this way for much longer.
I wish I was brave and could stab myself and kill me. I am a coward man!!!
I thought of hiring someone to kill me but can't find ANYONE.
I feel I am not right, I am ugly, fat, stupid, crazy, old, and I don't know.
Just feel I don't want to be alive, what for?

betterinrecovery
Posts: 449
Joined: Mon Oct 30, 2017 10:07 pm

Re: After a bottle of wine and 5 pills to sleep

Postby betterinrecovery » Mon Jan 14, 2019 8:42 am

Dear E-netsec
I am feeling rough myself.
I hope when you read this you are feeling a bit o.k.

maybe it will be possible for us to live our lives on our own terms -
ugly - so you might not have conventional good looks (join the club)
fat - alot of us are over weight. I have to accept I will never look like a super model
stupid - you can't be stupid or you would not be able to negotiate the internet, get to this site, register and post here.
crazy - is that another term for mental illness? then you are in good company
old - old ?? 70? 60? 50? 40?
In my humble opinion, we are brave. living in the modern world..getting up...going out...negotiating technology...will people accept or reject us...feeling alone...the break down of family life...poverty...crappy govenment policy,
this is modern life,
we are all brave, I think.
B


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