I guess I'll just go ahead and say hello.
Hmm, a little bit about me. I'm twenty-nine and have being "depressed" from around the age of eleven. When I was ten my baby brother, who was seven at the time, was killed by a drunk driver, unfortunately I happened to be there when it happened as we were on our way home from school - witnessing his death had the expected result.
At secondary school I had severe acne and was bullied constantly which caused my already low confidence to evaporate into the ether - never to be seen again. I shut myself off from everyone and lost any friendships I had. I still have no friends.
I live with my mother who I also care for. These days we're constantly at each other's throats, even though she is the only person I talk to and the only person I trust. The family home and my hometown have nothing but bad memories for me as I'm constantly reminded of my brother and the good times I (think – memories before his death are a hard to grasp) we had.
I live in a very toxic environment.
I can't get a place of my own because no one can (Housing Crisis). I can't work because of my illness. So I pretty much hate my life. That said, I’ll never and have never considered suicide.
I'm just existing at this point.
I didn't expect my introduction to be such a downer but I suppose I'm in the right place, huh?
I'm not sure how much I'll use this site but it's good to know it's there.
Stay safe, everyone.