Hi all, I am really desperate and found this forum. I just cannot cope anymore and have tried every line of help with crisis tean, CMHT, you name it i have tried it but nobody will help.
I have bipolar, severe anxiety disorder, panic disorder, Severe Hypochondiacal disorder (severe health anxiety), Agoraphobia and more. I have tried everything and have had suicidal ideation for a while now. I regularly call ambulances as my blood pressure and pulse go up to danger levels. A paramedic the other day saw how bad i was and made me an appointment with the crisis team where I told them I just cannot go on and am suicidal. I was given 3 days of support thats all, not a stich else.
I live alone which makes things much worse as I just have no direction with all my anxieties and physical health problems. I fear going to sleep at night as afraid I won't wake up. I have begged the CMHT and now the other day for admission to Psych ward to get me under control. The answer was simple, NO.
I need support even if it be supported housing living in a theraputic community but Lincolnshire has no supported housing for me at the age of 48. I have tried other counties but they can't take me as no local connection.
I am getting worse by the day. I don't want to have to jump off a building to get help but my anxieties are so bad that nothing can control them and the housebound agoraphobia does little to help. Of course if I had the money I would go private but I even run out of cash every month as have many other health conditions that require money and am in a lot of debt. My finances are the least of my worries.
Can any of you tell me what you have done to get help as I have tried so many times and unfortunately they are limited to what they can give me as my liver is bad from years of harsh medications and a past alcohol dependence.
I cannot live alone any longer, I need to be able to get support while this is going on but without any consideration of admission by the CMHT and crisis team and having done a thorough google on charities even that take people with mental health problems in, nothing and I am getting worse by the day.
I would appreciate any comments or advice but please be aware that I have pretty much left no stone unturned.
Thanks all, Brian