worker needed to do another assessment and I as technically being detained. The assessor walked, assessed me then said he was putting in a referral to the Crisis Team who would be in contact soon (this was 2pm) and could I keep myself safe in the meantime. I replied truthfully that I wasn't sure, to which he said "That 's good enough for me" then left. I was told I could wait at the station until the Crisis Team called, but I was now free to leave.
Still feeling very vulnerable, I stayed until 8pm until the station closed. The police left me alone in a room with a scarf still feeling actively suicidal and didn't check on me for two hours. The Crisis Team didn't call. I hadn't eaten in nearly two days by this point, but somehow managed to leave. Didn't sleep again whatsoever.
At 10.30 I again took myself to the doctors surgery and was turned away. I called the Criss Team who told me they would call back in ten minutes to arrange something and didn't I waited over an hour then started feeling overwhelmed, not in control of myself and suicidal again. I ended up walking in front of a car that swerved, not fully aware of what I was doing. I called the Crisis Team again whilst in floods of tears to be met with an incredibly rude , unsympathetic reeptionist. She conradicted everything I was told by the police, saying I wouldn't be assessed in the community or at their offices, but would need to go back to A&E. Then someone called back to say after 9pm I hung up on them.
By this time I was starting to feel incredibly angry and walked to the Samaritans again, who helped cam me down.
Why can people who are mentally ill not get the help they need? I feel very, very poorly.