Did some googling and found this fourm, First off this isnt a rant to make people feel sorry for me, this isnt a rant for attention. This is just me letting off some steam, if you do want to reply and offer some advice then great, if someone wants to give advice i would request that its how to live with how things are and to forget dating and thinking about getting a girlfriend, i want to enjoy what i have now and what ive worked hard for.
Im 30 years old, ive also found im balding which seems to hurt things even more. dating has been a constant battle for me, im confident on the outside and very outgoing. I seem to make girls laugh, i have no issue asking girls out given the chance, i get rejected left right and centre. I look after myself physically, im not overweight and i exercise 5 times a week, im 5ft 11" so im not short. looking at my photos with groups of friends i am the ugly one.
I remember when i was 18 i thought things would get better, but now at the age of 30 ive realised, its just not going to happen. Ive just seen a girl walk up to my friend and give him her number, he didnt do anything to get this.
Ive had enough of looking in the mirror and seeing my stupid face, ive had enough of being depressed in trying to find some one. life is too short and i want to enjoy life in other ways.
Im very lucky in some ways, my family are amazing, ive got my own house, my car isnt too shabby, ive got great pets, im stable with money at the moment, But i have this constant unhappyness that i havnt found a girlfriend yet.
I want this to stop, i want to stop searching, accept that its not going to happen, accept i am ugly. I exercise and keep fit for me and me only. ive got some good things going in my life, ive had enough of this constant shadow of saddness that i want to share it with some one. Im also annoyed at my self for feeling depressed. There are people out there who have far less then i do and dying of hunger, yet i have this constant dark cloud over my head chipping away at me.
Im hoping some how i can stop looking for a partner/girlfriend to share my life with, and enjoy life how it is.
If anyone has any advice on how to stop thinking about finding a partner then great, but over all this is just to vent my frustration and hoping somehow this helps me get this off my chest.
Thanks for reading.