I'm new here too.
If you would feel better by going to see your gp
Most are very understanding and will listen and not judge.
And if they dismiss your feelings and say you are fat
Change your gp!!!
Hopefully this will not happen
They may be able to help you by referring you for therapy etc.
There is help out there
Finding the right sort of help can be difficult
There is hope for you and others like you because
You are not alone.