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lonelybrokenheart
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Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby lonelybrokenheart » Sat Jul 14, 2018 6:28 am

My problems are social anxiety and avoidant personality. I'm currently on trial, my dog got put down, I've lost my son and girlfriend thanks to the vultures known as social services. I've spent my last 2 years living with constant anxiety feeling like the great justice system will storm my bubble again. My comfort bubble has been smashed. If it wasn't for my girlfriend, I wouldn't be here today. She was my rock and helped me through my thoughts of prison life and severe anxiety.. Last week was when I lost my family, dog, son and girlfriend. I have only my mum that stands by me. I lost most of it because I told my mum about my brother molesting me years ago. It built up and exploded, which lead to them bin bagging my girlfriend and telling porky pies to social services. The thing is.. Is I put it down to him being a stupid teen curious about his sexuality. I don't want him punished and I don't hate him. Most of us do stupid things at times. Do I wish I kept my mouth shut? Defiantly. I would still have contact with my girlfriend (is she my girlfriend? I dunno) and son. They now live 400 miles away and that is too far to fight social services. I don't have the energy to fight anything anymore and I've been brought to my knees. I'm 30 years old and sleep with my girlfriends teddy LOL. I don't get any sleep, I sit here crying, feeling lonely and anxious about what else can happen (my brother denied it and they all put it down to my mental issues. The police took me to get sectioned the night I told them and the mental health team said I'm completely stable. I suffer with social anxiety, not anything that makes up stuff. So anyways.. I sat here feeling dead and thought to my self, there is others out there suffering too. So I joined here to use my experiences with mental health to help others not feel the way I do because it is a cruel, unfair feeling. There's a lot more to my list of problems, but you probably stopped reading ages ago. So yeah.. If you are struggling and reading, I will listen to you for however long I can survive. Also, I see a counsellor regularly and take good medication. So no need to point me anywhere. :P Thanks and take care :)

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby itt » Sat Jul 14, 2018 7:03 am

Hi
Just reading your sad mad bad true life story.
I will have to read it at least three times and that's how I roll.
The words become feelings and sink in ... hopefully not down plughole.

I know these feelings you have of loss.
Have been there
Got the fucking tee shirt etc etc etc.

Me and my itt will not get bored reading your true life story
Don't you worry your mind about that please ...
See Iv got manners... I'm often told Iv got no manners and I'm ill!

Just going to read your true life story again
Back soon
Hold in there please

Kind thinks
Itt :-)

lonelybrokenheart
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Joined: Sat Jul 14, 2018 4:00 am

Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby lonelybrokenheart » Sat Jul 14, 2018 12:01 pm

Lol you being sarcastic? What parts have you been through?

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby itt » Sat Jul 14, 2018 3:44 pm

Hola.
Am I sarcastic? Lol
I'm definitely inappropriate.
And am known for my dark sense of humour.
And my silly sense of humour.
Iv been labelled F20
Which to me is fucked 20
But my psychiatrist says I'm schizophrenic
And Iv got to live with it.
Iv absolutely no fucking intention of living with it.
Don't want to die because of it either.
So I walk the tightrope of life and death.

What are you on trial for ?
Kind thinks
Itt

lonelybrokenheart
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Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby lonelybrokenheart » Sat Jul 14, 2018 6:22 pm

I'm on trial for malicious communications (guilty) and attempting to create indecent images (not guilty). I mixed medication with my alcohol and wanted everybody to hate me and went and said to the girl to get her daughter to flash some skin. I was out of character for sure and I don't need telling how stupid it was. I guess it was a 'use their most loved one to wind them up' kinda thing. I didn't for a second want no picture, because I knew how much she loved her daughter. It was like a mental breakdown.

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby itt » Sun Jul 15, 2018 1:21 am

Hiya
Sounds like you are going through the mill.
I can't say I'm an angel either.
I'm not going to judge you.
Iv done and said some very strange things.
I got into trouble for sending abusive emails.
I was very angry with the system and the way I was being treated.
I'm told I'm ill but I don't feel ill.
Just a little bit out of control sometimes.
Which can cause problems .
How long is your trial going to last ?
Hope you got a good lawyer.
Kind thinks
Itt

lonelybrokenheart
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Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby lonelybrokenheart » Sun Jul 15, 2018 7:58 am

My trial has been going on for over a year. It keeps being delayed. I think the system is a complete joke.

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby itt » Sun Jul 15, 2018 2:12 pm

Hiya
A year of suffering.
Must be difficult at times :-(
What was your dogs name ?
We have got a dog called kaya
Two horses tonto and robin
Four guinea piggies
Andrew 2
Alistair
Arry
Dougal
One Maisy mouse
Lots of fish

Kind thinks
Itt :-)

lonelybrokenheart
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Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby lonelybrokenheart » Mon Jul 16, 2018 1:07 am

Mr itt, you are truly of your head. But what separates you from the rest? The fact you actually give your time to reply. Which makes you a great guy. My dog was called Charlie and you have a lot of pets lol

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: Just thought I'd say hi :)

Postby itt » Mon Jul 16, 2018 3:09 am

Thankyou that's the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me.
Yes I can give my time because that is free.
My time don't cost money.
They say time costs money. Who ever they are ? :-)
Kindness is free too
Costs sweet FA
Beware of anyone charging for kindness.
Because it is free !
Trust me :-)

Charlie... that's a lovely name for a dog and a human.
Iv had some very tragic times
Quite a lot regarding animals and humans too.

Putting our lovely animals to sleep is never easy decision
To make.
But it is our responsibility to them
Especially if they are ill and in pain.
Or quality of life is no longer there.

I feel your sadness:-(

Really hope you ok

Kind thinks
Itt :-)


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