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foreverblue
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ugly

Postby foreverblue » Thu Jun 28, 2018 10:09 am

Basically what it says in the title.

I don't like looking at myself anymore. My skin is the worst and my skinny frame makes me think no one will ever love me.

My self confidence is so low that I keep jumping from bed to bed with different men for validation but all I really want is someone to care about me. I miss my ex so much and I see him everyday at work. I'm sure if he knew half the things I have done after our break-up he'd laugh.

Everyone just laughs at me and I can't laugh it off anymore.

I want to live the life I always wanted, with my own family...I can't see that ever happening.

I think of dying too much.

capitalt
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Joined: Fri Apr 27, 2018 4:22 pm

Re: ugly

Postby capitalt » Fri Jun 29, 2018 7:25 pm

I'm sure you're not, beauty comes from within and is subjective not objective.
Please talk with your GP.
Hugglescote xox

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: ugly

Postby itt » Fri Jul 13, 2018 6:10 am

Hi
They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder .
Who ever "they" are?

Many years ago I was out with my brother and some of his friends.
And one of his "friends"
Looked me straight in the eye
And said "your ugly"

I was really taken aback
I didn't know what to say
No one had ever told me this before.
I was hurt.
I just walked away.

For a long time afterwards I kept churning these words over in my washing machine of a mind.
Kept thinking of all the smart arse replies I could have fired back but did not.

In the end I just thought
Yes you have all the good looks but your ugly inside.
He was an ugly person for saying such an ugly thing to me.

Hope you don't mind me asking but why did you break up ?
Must be really hard seeing them at work.

Kind thinks and hugs
Itt x

foreverblue
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Re: ugly

Postby foreverblue » Mon Jul 16, 2018 9:10 am

Hello,

Thank you for message...ugliness is indeed on the inside too but I seem to have ugliness inside but in a different way. I'm not a cruel person or mean...but I make so many stupid and awful mistakes...I just feel tarnished.

He left me because he had trouble with one of his kids...it was fair I mean he did have to put them first...it just still hurts a lot. I wanted to be there for him and said I would wait for him but he didn't want to.

I poured my heart out to him over the phone, only to get bluntly rejected. I understand that he did what he thought was best but I just wanted him to be sympathetic and tell me that at least he wanted my friendship...

Thank you for listening..I'm sorry I sound so whiny x

itt
Posts: 26
Joined: Thu Jul 12, 2018 4:26 am

Re: ugly

Postby itt » Mon Jul 16, 2018 11:48 am

Hiya
You don't sound whinny to me.
You sound a hurt kind human.

I believe in hope and fate... things happen for a reason
And through my life I just hold onto these thinks.

Some good comes out of some bad.
But not straight away.
Don't work like that.

We all make mistakes this is a fact of life.
Old saying we have to learn by our mistakes.
This is true
But sometimes Iv stupidly made more mistakes.

Have you got mates?
Can you turn to them for support?
If you want to sound off to me I'm ok with that.
I'm not sure if I can be of help
But I will listen

Kind thinks
Itt


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