Thank you for message...ugliness is indeed on the inside too but I seem to have ugliness inside but in a different way. I'm not a cruel person or mean...but I make so many stupid and awful mistakes...I just feel tarnished.
He left me because he had trouble with one of his kids...it was fair I mean he did have to put them first...it just still hurts a lot. I wanted to be there for him and said I would wait for him but he didn't want to.
I poured my heart out to him over the phone, only to get bluntly rejected. I understand that he did what he thought was best but I just wanted him to be sympathetic and tell me that at least he wanted my friendship...
Thank you for listening..I'm sorry I sound so whiny x