I hope your day changed a bit when you went out. I started to feel really crappy today (could be side effects of stronger meds)- hilarious really- what you have to go through to hopefully feel a little better! I sat in a meeting at work and reflected on what an amazing actress i really am- with no one having a clue. Some ways i think this helps as i have to put on a face and have to do certain things. I however am winging life at this moment.
I would imagine that if you were physically ill and having a relapse the last thing you would feel would be guilty- being kind to yourself may also come more naturally. As i am a private person it still may be something i kept to myself, but i can see myself as perhaps sharing with my boss just to make things a little easier. I do my best at work, but i am no way working to my potential, i have become master at 'getting by' and 'good enough' and it helps to not have a permanent boss. Interesting to think about! I am however reducing my working days in a few months time- i have said i want more of a work life balance but it is actually to help me cope better. On one hand i cannot wait as life could be so much easier. I do also worry though about working less as when i am really bad, time goes really slowly and i have zero motivation- I'm not sure when feeling like this i will cope well with extra non structured time. Sorry for the self absorbed waffle.
Look after yourself x
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