So things haven’t changed much. I see him once a week, sometimes twice. He’s never refused to see me but he always chooses the date and time. He holds my hand, hugs me, kisses me with the passion I remember and miss so much, but that’s it, he says he has no sex drive still (at least he admits this now, he used to blame me), that he feels numb and has shut off his feelings to protect himself from hurt. He goes to counselling but it’s not helping as he’s not really willing to do what they ask him to. He won’t take the antidepressants even though he keeps saying he will try. He often drinks too much, his friends still think taking him out drinking all night is helpful!! Me, I’m slowly giving up, I love this man with all my heart but I can’t see any end to this and I feel so alone and unloved and he really doesn’t care, says he has no empathy.