Sorry I bypassed your comment before, when I realise I tried to find it but kept missing it. Thanks or responding and yup totally agree that looking fir guidance seems to be the road I'm travelling on, rather than the path of answers.
Lovely to.' hear' your voice again. I'm so glad that things have improved for you. That you are rebuilding your faith is great. I find a lot of comfort in my faith. I no longer look for answers but guidance.
Take care and God Bless
The JWs are obsessed about smoking aren't they? Bringing you meds though is good of them and it sounds as if your chap is decent.
I'm sorry you have such physical health problems too. It must augment (is that the right word) your depression/ anxiety. So far (touch wood) my physical health has always been robust. I go against the argument that mental illness increases the likelihood of physical health problems. I suspect that it is the lifestyle many people are 'forced' into by depression, a poor diet, drinking,smoking more, less exercise etc.
I am aware that I am perhaps taking a risk with my health. I no longer go for smear tests, mammograms or bowel screening. A couple of years ago I needed to have a test due to certain symptoms. I became so anxious that I became convinced I would go back into the depths. I know my thoughts are illogical but I can still say after all these years that I would succumb to terminal cancer before going back to that hell. At least with cancer there's an end in sight. If what I'm saying offends you I'm sorry. I know it offended a friend of mine. It's simply due to my experience.
I don't mind if your posts are about you. I find them interesting. I just wish you didn't have to experience this.