I hope you’ve had a good few days?
I guess I did use the past a bit to much in my last post, going on about my Capri gear like I was Derek Trotter...
Sorry Modin, it’s an old tactic of mine when I know I’m hitting the end of despair and arriving at no hope horizon... The trouble is that the old laugh standby is not helping as much as it use to.
Depression is so dam lonely, I’m lonely...

A young man should have confidence, it impresses a young woman lol.. Or so all the experts say..
Just be you Modin...That’s all you have to be..Try not to worry about things you can’t change, embrace the best things of you..The plus points... you’ll find that any negative points you may have, your new girlfriend will soon point them out to you anyway.. Without you needing to even think about it, lol.. In other words saving yourself all that brain worry, lol..
They are good at that...I’m joking..I’m sure she’s a lovely person.
Confidence in the big world can be scary, when you have little of it...God only knows I and probably many others Modin have suffered from it at some point in our lives. But you got this , you can win through those doubts, you have too, because you’ll be a better man for it and you’ll achieve so much more..You don’t want to waste that intelligence you have on such negative doubts..
Remember this..
Actors are the most insecure people in the world..Most Comedians suffer from depression...And musicians are just on another planet anyway..lol...Yet they all have one thing in common, they battle their demons daily, they fight their doubts in their head daily, to try and make it in this world and better themselves as performers...Nobody knows more about rejection than entertainers ... But the best ones, never loose sight of the goal..
Your goal..Is belief in you..Forget all the negative points you see in yourself.. And start looking at the positive ones, and keep remembering them everyday..If you do, in time, those positives will turn into other new positives...
Don’t forget, like negative thoughts can bring you down, positive ones can lift you up and up..
I need to listen to myself more, I make a lot of sense...sometimes, lol..
Life is one big performance Modin.. Give it your best 100% shot, that’s all you can do, you’ll be so happy you did..
Hint 1, for today.. You can please some of the people some of the time, but not all the people all of the time... So don’t worry about what others think, just be you.. Of course, still worry about what your mother thinks and your parents in general, because there for life, not just for Xmas.
I never knew my parents very well, hardly saw them in 51 years... Feel lucky Modin that you have people in your life that love you at such a young age and are there for you..
Both my parents were never there... And my grandad, who was my best friend, my teacher, my father figure died when I was 19..It’s tough when your young to loose somebody that’s been so influential in your life..A part of you dies with them..
I wouldn’t want your life to turn out like mine Modin..
I look on you tube, and marvel.. I’ve never seen so many so called experts on so many subjects, the Confidence motivational gurus are the best..There’s so many of them, and you can guarantee their help comes with their own endorsed line of books, dvds, seminars and business seminars... or buy the whole lot for that special never to be repeated price, you lucky people, only available for 30 more days at this bargain price of $30, rush and buy it before it goes back up to its still amazingly low price of .......$2,300....
What people don’t seem to realise...Is the .. “only available for 30 days “, slogan...has probably been going for 3 years....

Yea...where there’s a body still breathing, there’s a perspective customer on the horizon I guess..
The gravy train may change the way it looks, but it’s still a gravy train, going to the same old destination...Ka-ching Central Station..
The internet is becoming the new shopping mall... And our email addresses are becoming the new letterboxes, where all the junk mail is sent...History repeating itself again in a more advanced way..
You get what you pay for, they say. You certainly do.... You have to pay a hell of a lot, to get anything resembling what you pay for...Quality I mean... My theory is, plastic was invented for poor people ,lol...
Don’t get me wrong Modin, I embrace the new techno world....It’s brought a lot of good.. And it’s fantastic, some of the stuff available.. But do we need it all really? Are we really any happier?
It’s just I see the same charlatans, the same scammers the same greedy people in business on the World Wide Web as use to be in the days before the internet.. nothing changes...
Still...saying all that, you tube has some great documentaries, I’ve been all round the world thanks to You Tube..It really is a good educational tool....
I’ll have a look at that channel you recommend, thank you for recommending it..
I’m off again, sorry this is how I unwind at 51, lol...I’m joking...The real truth Modin..This is a grown man, that if he doesn’t laugh, he may just fall down and cry and just stay there and never get back up..Which was always seen as a weakness by my family...Men don’t cry apparently..
I promise I will talk about a few things in my life next time, it’s just hard bringing them up Modin, but yea, a problem shared is a problem halved I guess... Get your pencil and pad ready for next time then lol...I feel like a lab rat. Lol...
In fact ask me some questions you want to know, I will answer them honestly.. And if I don’t want to answer, I’ll honestly tell you I can’t ..
Here’s one question for you..Are you a very intelligent French lad who can speak better English than me, or , as I suspect , are you a very intelligent young English man living in your parents Villa in a beautiful part of France ?..Do not tell me where you live, remember this is an open forum.
Stay upbeat my friend.
J
I’ve struggled with confidence all my life modin. That’s the trouble