I'm certain you will speak to your care coordinator before your psychiatry appointment.
(I'm sorry it has to be a case of you having to track them down like this though.)
It's positive that you have the psychiatry appointment booked in. Could someone go with you to your appointment? (you say you don't trust him... is it personal as you can request a different doctor or is it just a generic lack of trust for a new person?)
Also, perhaps it would actually be good to meet with your previous therapist!
You already know each other and I sense that you worked well together?
When are you meeting?
I will be honest with you, I feel SO much better for not having to go to that dead end pot-wash job.
I don't know why I do it to myself... it's a constant cycle with these jobs. I've had, over the years, about 50 (no exaggeration) of these jobs. I don't like them! I think a lot of it as well is my history with anorexia (though recovered) as so much of my time was taken up with food.... that preparing and serving food in a job is the last thing I want to bloody think about!
Why do I keep going back to the same old crap job? …. Because I can. It's safe. It's easy. Because I'm AFRAID of making that change (e.g. community).
I hope now that my mood will improve and I'll feel confident to visit that community. At times I do so fingers and toes crossed and anxiety gremlin squashed!
Otherwise it's the cycle....
Yes, my parents are very supportive. Thanks for saying that I deserve more.
What about a group which will make you feel good about yourself?
A support group, mindfulness/meditation, something in the church (is your GP involved in anything you could join?), some upbeat exercise/dance class, or volunteering....?
Or something that you and your partner could enjoy together? (for some reason, something like a pub quiz came to mind. You'd be socialising amongst others.)
Now this might be a big goal, but would it be appropriate to socialise with your manager (or other colleagues) outside of work? It would be a good way of showing your anxiety who's boss and also a good social opportunity! Just a thought.
It's an online diploma. (no classes running locally!) I've done two previously. I'm a total nerd when it comes to essay writing.
The nausea has passed pretty much. I'm feeling brighter. Like I've passed through the fog of doom.
I know! We're meeting for a coffee and going to the cinema. I'm surprised by my selective gutsiness, too! I worry about getting on the wrong tube, but I'll go on a pretty-much blind date! Ahhh... the inexplicabilities of mental health.
Keep me posted. Love Em xx