Hello again bigekr, just replied to reply of yours in another room. Just wanted to welcome you here, one thing, forum is pretty quiet at the mo. Rant room always good to let of steam, safe room if you are feeling vunerable. Had pretty serious depression for 10 years, don't know how bad yours is, at my worst was unable to wash or change my clothes, literally for months on end so know what a terrible place it is to be in. Do you have a good cpn or pychiatrist, a good cpn makes all the difference although unfortunatley there are some horrors out there, nice to meet you, Aisling.