I'm really peed off with myself. Had all the time in the world to get stuff done the last two weeks and I've done next to nothing. Home still looks like a bombsite. Garden overgrown. Even running short of trousers and not bothered to buy any. Can't even convince myself to go to sleep at a reasonable hour. It is not that I can't sleep, it is that I am choosing not to! Arrrggghhhhh! My F'ing s*ite brain needs a punch!
So f'ing sick of knowing what I want to do and what I need to do to get better and improve my life but being unable to take action to do it! Arrrrgggghhhh!
So sick of having this self-sabotaging brain in control. So sick of that part of me. I've tried accepting but this lack of action is unacceptable! If I could invite my subconscious outside for a fight, I would!
F*ck it all anyway.