My prayers are with you.
You may feel different about the mental health dropin when you start feeling better
Yesterday the JW gave us a pamphlet about suffering entitled Does God Care? It was one of their better ones,
People around the world still believe that all suffering is punishment from God. This pamphlet listed three reasons
1) The actions of greedy, cruel, selfish imperfect humans
2) Bad luck and being in the wrong place at the wrong time
3) Satan delights in human suffering (without saying he caused it)
We can only do our best which is what we are doing. Thats why I know we can get through it all