I did not sleep well. I am numb and very anxious.
Being discarded is such a horrible feeling. Like you Lillie, things were going so well I just don't know what's happened. Over the weekend while i was contacting him on messenger he was giving my messages thumbs down and thumbs up and this has puzzled me as i don't know what this means.
Yet i still try to justify his behaviour.
i have archived our conversation on whatsapp so its not the first thing i see when i open the app and I have blocked him on there.
Lillie, I know what you mean about stupid things, I have a new staff starting with me today whose name is Conor, my guy's name. and I am thinking why did i hire this guy?
I sent him one final message this morning to say that regardless of anything i wished him well. I also told him that if at any stage i removed him from fb, it wasn't because i was vindictive but because i need self-preservation. I finished by saying that i would not message him anymore and for him to get in touch with me to sort out the money thing.
I just do not have it or the energy within me to get angry anymore. Nice, kind and forgiving to a fault this is me... a forever doormat
The last few months took a lot out of me so it is probably a blessing in disguise. But the loneliness is there, i am most definitely having whatsapp messaging withdrawals. Out of all the weirdos i met through online dating, he seemed like a nice, genuine and normal guy. I now have my doubts these exist...