Hi everyone, I'm not really sure how to start or what to do on this but I will tell you a bit about me.
I suffer from delayed onset PTSD (un-diagnosed) due to a traumatic event in my childhood that has only recently surfaced (I am 20 now) as well as depression. I have recently being going through a particularly difficult time with issues unrelated to my illnesses and that put me under a serious amount of strain. To cope with it I put dealing with my other issues on hold.
Now externally my life is fine, so theoretically I should be happy, in fact a terrible event was averted so even more so. Instead, though, I feel worse and I struggle to feel happy about anything. My flashbacks have come back and the recovery I thought I was achieving regarding depression seems to be reversing.
I am feel more of a failure because I should be happy now but I am not, it makes me think I can't ever be. I was hoping for peoples thoughts on it, if they have felt anything similar?
(apologies if I have gone about this the wrong way)