I feel stuck in an office cliques black hole and my anxiety issues are growing and growing. Ultimately I feel offices make me I'll and I need to change jobs, which I will. In the meantime though...I felt so happy being part of a group in my office..pathetic I know. I have social anxiety and going to an office with no chance of running away, I felt so great when I was getting on with people. I think I managed to get to know a few people very well and I even managed to let people get to know me a little better.
However, there is so very much gossip going on and I'm standing in the middle trying to listen to everyone and not piss people off and I'm feeling more and more weak and my brain is on fire so often and then my black dog sits on my chest and I feel lost and pathetic and drained.