You poor thing! I feel for you, for I've been through the same, and it's horrible.
If he broke up with you, especially when you were feeling low, perhaps it's for the best. Friends like that aren't worth having. Good friends stick with you through thick and thin. I learnt this through experiencing years of being used and dumped. It was a painful thing to admit, but in the end I had to.
Sticking at a miserable job is another cause of stress. The sooner you manage to esacpe from that yoke the better it will be for your mental health - which should always come first. Being very, very unhappy there even upsets me, a stranger, just to know that it's doing that to you. I don't understand it when you say you must stick at the job because you need sick pay (my understanding of how the welfare/benefit system works is very poor), but what's more important - an operation to repair your physical health or a stress-free life to improve your mental health? Both could be life-saving and are equally important. Your job is getting in the way. There's no point having an operation if you're spiralling down to a suicidal state. Someone needs to demand that you get the care you need and deserve, and fully accept that your job is making you very ill. You shouldn't be expected to do this yourself. A family member or friend should do it for you willingly
, but if not, a mental health advocate.
personlessvoid wrote:Over the past few weeks, I've been experiencing another relapse in my depression and now it's at it's peak. I'm so scared that this is going to send me spiralling down again into suicidal tendencies. I don't know what to do. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm only young but it still hurts.
You mustn't let it spiral down, and the only real way to stop that happening is to escape from whatever is causing it, to reduce the triggers. It's like a dam that's about to burst. The only way to stop it is to allow some of the water to escape.
I can't do this anymore
No, you certainly can't. You need all the support you can get
, preferably from your family and friends. To say that you're only young is pointless and completely irrelevant. Age is no excuse for unhappiness. Show them this reply.
Stay strong and please keep in touch. x