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confused trig

Postby loubat » Sun May 26, 2013 8:03 pm

I harm a lot but keep finding scratches and cuts I haven't done or can't remember doing I really don't understand why. They are taking my things off me because of the harming but if this keeps happening I will never get them back and can't carry on much longer being so bored and fed up fukin me off I am such a fuked up freak :(

belle
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Re: confused trig

Postby belle » Sun May 26, 2013 8:57 pm

Sorry you are having a hard time.
Can they help you work out when you have SH'd then?
It seems unfair to take stuff you if you can't work out when its' happened, although I realise they need to keep you safe.
Can you talk to the therapist about it maybe?
xxx

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Re: confused trig

Postby NeverGiveUp22 » Sun May 26, 2013 9:11 pm

I used to have injuries I couldn't remember, and that was because I was dissociating so often (due to the stress of bringing particular topics up in therapy).
Maybe you could find out whether you can use your things, when supervised? If there was somewhere you could sit and they could keep an eye on you that might be okay. The other question being are there things you could be allowed, because you can't harm with them? I presume you have at least your phone as you're on here. What about games for on your phone? I know it's not much, but anything is better than nothing.

Thinking of you xxx

Ever tried? Ever failed? No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.
~Samuel Beckett~

loubat

Re: confused trig

Postby loubat » Sun May 26, 2013 9:23 pm

Hey belle I have just spoken with nurse and told her about the scratches and cuts I can't remember I hate talkin but know I have to be honest. Just hard to understand why its happening she said I can talk it through with my theropist tomorrow xxx
Thank ngu It happened after I rang my mom and she shouted some unrepeatable words and hung up so yes there was a trigger. Thanks it good to hear its not just me I really am confused about what's happening at moment and hate feeling so out of control.
I was allowed my art stuff yestaday while supervised and I have got kindle but they want me to rest but just can't at moment xxx
Thank you both for replying xx

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Re: confused trig

Postby belle » Sun May 26, 2013 9:33 pm

That sounds like a good idea to talk to the therapist.
Sorry you had a difficult call with your mum.
Maybe you could make a case that having your art stuff gives you some inner peace because you are focussed on something and it does rest your mind in a different way if that makes sense?
Call me think but a kindle is a thing you read books on - yes :?
I have loads of books I haven't read but find it too hard to concentrate. If I do read a bit I forget what I've read......
Keep safe and keep going Lou.
xxx

NeverGiveUp22
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Re: confused trig

Postby NeverGiveUp22 » Sun May 26, 2013 9:37 pm

I feel with you. It is so confusing when things happen which you can't remember. I felt terribly lost and out of control during that period. It scared me so much. I know some others who've had similar experiences. It's your mind trying to cope with all that is happening and experiences you're reliving through therapy. As such it's part of the healing process, but I know it feels horrible. You're not alone. And we're here listening. Lots of hugs!

It's hard to rest, when you feel unsettled and bored. Maybe speaking to the nurse will have helped a bit. Can you get up and have a little walk around or isn't that an option today?

xxx

Ever tried? Ever failed? No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.
~Samuel Beckett~

loubat

Re: confused trig

Postby loubat » Sun May 26, 2013 10:02 pm

Thanks belle
Yes I will try to speak to theropist tomorrow if I feel better as not been allowed to go last few days not been well. I have finally realised that my mom doesn't want to know me so have to just move on it hurts but can't keep taking the rejection.
Yes they know how important my art is too me to keep my mind relaxed and have given me supervised time to draw but at the moment they don't want me out of bed so bit restricted hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Yes kindle is for books but also movies and music but with my bad temper again its been taken off me in case i smash it see I make things worse for my self xxx

loubat

Re: confused trig

Postby loubat » Sun May 26, 2013 10:07 pm

Yes ngu its horrible never had it before and is very scary I have told nurse but feel stupid and weak for doing so she was very understanding though and tried to reasure me but times like this I just beat my self up mainly because I can not understand it and I have an obsession for having to understand things which is tiring in it self.
They don't want me to get out of bed at all really huni would love to have a walk about but they are obsessed with me resting at the moment xxx

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Re: confused trig

Postby Lucretia » Sun May 26, 2013 10:12 pm

many hugs and love
xx
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loubat

Re: confused trig

Postby loubat » Sun May 26, 2013 10:20 pm

Thanks Lu hugs back to youxxx


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