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Aleshadxcherylc
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Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Fri Jul 13, 2012 4:14 pm

Had a breakdown on Tuesday when I went to my therapist cried so much gave myself a headache and slept for most of the afternoon and evening it was like that panicky crying where your heart and breathing goes funny too and I could feel pain in my chest whilst crying 
I feel very alone with this attachment thing has anyone else on here had extreme attatchments to their past therapists and haven't been able to move on? And doing the things that I have been doing I feel very very isolated  ie Facebook car pictures etc
Like I said to my Thespist wish someone could give me a pill and it all be over !
Anyway if anyone is Kind of the same let me know as this really is a battle And I can't cope for much longer I don't think anyone understands 
Feeling very low emotional anxious on edge Sucidial emotional disteessed tiYred drained and very depressed today Also my dad is going through 2nd set of chemotherapy too I feel so selfish I wish I was me who has it not my dad
IAnd on top of all my other issues and problems it's not worth living I'm struggling to cope daily I'm feeling worse everyday
I think I might delete my account or not come on here any longer not on here much anyway and I can't support anyone nymore so I feel useless as it is but not responding makes me feel more useless
I also feel guilty as I moan about my problems and I can't be there for others
I know I've said about deleting a lot but I think I mean it this time
I know you will all get better be strong as you all are
Also today has been very Friday the 13th like everyday is
Take
Care
I feel so alone with the extreme attatchments issue
I think I am going to go
Signing off for good this time bye peeps
X
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you

muchlove
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Re: Bye

Postby muchlove » Fri Jul 13, 2012 5:32 pm

You've got to do what you think is right for you, but I will say that its ok if you don't feel able to support others here at the moment, I've not been doing a lot of supporting others recently either. I find I struggle to read posts and can't think of answers. But there will come a time when you feel more able to do that.
Sorry to hear about your dad but you have nothing to feel guilty about.
In terms of attachment. I get very attached to people too, never happened with past therapists bit it has with other people and is happeneing with my care coordinator at the moment. I don't know what to suggest.
Just wanted to let you know I'd read your post and your not alone
Xx
"You may be laying in the gutter but at least you'll be looking up at the stars."

wishbone
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Re: Bye

Postby wishbone » Sat Jul 14, 2012 3:53 pm

If you are around, just say hello now and again. Have a break if you wish. Sometimes we do get overwhelmed.

I can't be on here much, but just wanted to say that we do care on here. I hope things settle down enough to manage better.

Thinking of you. xxxx

Aisha85
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Re: Bye

Postby Aisha85 » Sat Jul 14, 2012 8:35 pm

Hey! dont leave us! please stay here with us x

Aleshadxcherylc
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Re: Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Sun Jul 15, 2012 8:01 pm

Run to you- whitney houston

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl who's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me?
I feel so all alone

[Chorus:]
I want to run to you (oooh)
I want to run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms 
And keep me safe from harm
I want to run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me 
What's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean?

[Chorus:]
I want to run to you (oooh)
I want to run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms 
And keep me safe from harm
I want to run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away

I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To hug away my fears
If you only knew how much...

[Chorus:]
I want to run to you (oooh)
I want to run to you (oooh)
Won't you hold me in your arms 
And keep me safe from harm
I want to run to you (oooh)
But if I come to you (oooh)
Tell me, will you stay or will you run away
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you

Aleshadxcherylc
Posts: 1202
Joined: Tue Jan 03, 2012 8:28 pm

Re: Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Sun Jul 15, 2012 8:02 pm

Fix you- coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you

Aleshadxcherylc
Posts: 1202
Joined: Tue Jan 03, 2012 8:28 pm

Re: Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Sun Jul 15, 2012 8:07 pm

My immortal- evanescence 

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you

Aleshadxcherylc
Posts: 1202
Joined: Tue Jan 03, 2012 8:28 pm

Re: Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Sun Jul 15, 2012 8:12 pm

Suicide- rihanna

Everywhere is still
everything is restless in my heart
i hate the way this feels
suddenly i'm scared to be apart
the days are dark when you're not around
the air is getting hard to breathe
i wish that you would just put me down
i wish that i could go to sleep

loving you is suicide
i don't know should go or should i stay
i'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late
but i heard you say you love me
that's the part i can't forget
and i wish that you come save me
cos i'm standing over the edge

i should let you go
tell myself the things i need to hear
but my brain is wired wrong
that's why i'm loving you when you're not here
feels like i drown in your every word
and every breath that's in between
somehow you got me where it really hurts
it's killing every part of me

loving you is suicide
i don't know should go or should i stay
i'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late
but i heard you say you love me
that's the part i can't forget
and i wish that you come save me
boy cos i'm standing over the edge

loving you is suicide
and my world's about to break
and i... had as much as i can take
and love is a long way down

loving you is suicide
and it's getting harder everyday
i'm tryna to keep myself alive
knowing there's a chance it's all too late
and i'm way past every moment
but i'm still determined to fight
and i know it's taking all my strength
to give emotions alive
loving you is suicide
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you

Aleshadxcherylc
Posts: 1202
Joined: Tue Jan 03, 2012 8:28 pm

Re: Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Sun Jul 15, 2012 8:17 pm

This depression- bruce Springsteen

Baby, I've been down
But never this down
I've been lost
But never this lost

This is my confession
I need your heart
In this depression
I need your heart

Baby, I've been low
But never this low
I've had my faith shaken
But never hopeless

This is my confession
I need your heart
In this depression
I need your heart
And I've always been strong
But I've never felt so weak
And all my prayers have gone for nothing
I've been without love
But never forsaken
Now the morning sun
The morning sun is breaking

This is my confession
I need your heart
In this depression
I need your heart

This is my confession
I need your heart
In this depression
I need your heart

This is my confession
I need your heart
In this depression
I need your heart
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you

Aleshadxcherylc
Posts: 1202
Joined: Tue Jan 03, 2012 8:28 pm

Re: Bye

Postby Aleshadxcherylc » Sun Jul 15, 2012 8:23 pm

I need you- Leanne rhymes 

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something

But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage

And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you
I need you
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you


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