Today it is 25 years since my Mum died. I've never really liked the term passing away, and losing someone..just sounds careless.
I would have liked my family to maybe have a small get together to reflect and remember, to mark what I think is a special/significant day. I guess our family isn't like that, and I have to accept it wasn't to be.
No fuss was made when my Mum died. I was told on Sunday late afternoon, and I went to school as normal on the Monday. I did not go to the funeral, I wasn't asked.
My Mum was cremated and no-one seems very sure where her ashes were scattered.
No one in the family mentions any one who has died, my Mum, All my Grandparents, and a brother who I never knew.
I know everyone has their own way with dealing with grief, and I know it is hard to know what to say to someone who is grieving..
but I just think I need or want some recognition that these loved ones have died.
I wish my family could be more open and talk about death, rather than just sweeping it under the carpet, and pretending it hasn't happened, or it doesn't matter..because it does.
Today i'm doing alright, I don't want to be excessively gloomy or mawkish. I would like to update my FB status, but I can't seem to find the right words. I'm not after sympathy.
It's an unsual day, because it's also my partners Birthday, so we will be having friends round and a small party later.