I don't think I can manage without antidepressants and I feel like a failure. I got myself off them about 4 months ago. For a while I felt "better". But the last few weeks I've noticed I have zero zero zero coping skills. Misplacing my glasses induces screaming and crying. Getting a unexpected large bill has me stomping around the house screaming that I hate my life. I was so worried about the ill effects of long term SSRI use, but honestly I'm more in jeopardy by the way I feel lately. I just made an appointment with my doctor to discuss going back on meds. I am sick of feeling how I do. I feel a little anxious and "off" and today i just realized the "off" feeling is SCARED. Don't know why. But can see I'm losing interest in things- cancelling appointments, dropping activities I like, bailing on plans at the last minute. I just don't think I can manage without the meds. I'm at the end of my rope.