Thank you, you helped make my day bearable. I managed to get dressed in vibrant red (including the sparkly heels) and took myself to my local independent cinema to watch A Muppet Christmas Carol, with a glass of mulled wine and popcorn. The guy selling me a ticket even flirted with me a little
At times I felt just awful, but I persevered. Then I tried window shopping and found a book on positive self-talk and following your aspirations, so that was my present to myself. Then I found an old Happy Birthday banner from last year which I hung up in my flat and treated myself to a Tiramasu dessert from Waitrose as my birthday "cake".
Even doing these small things would have been unthinkable a week ago things looked so bleak and black.
An old friend also texted me Happy Birthday and I looked at a list of famous people who were born on the same day on the internet and felt less "alone" but in good company. At times it was painful, but at times it was actually reasonably enjoyable. I feel good that I actually made an effort and tried rather than totally giving up.
Thanks for your wisdom, it was so very appreciated x