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tash88
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Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby tash88 » Mon Nov 25, 2019 11:12 pm

I'm so sorry your going through this, your not on your own we all are here for you. Please tell me a bit about yourself?

katyia
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Joined: Wed Jun 12, 2019 10:10 pm

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby katyia » Tue Nov 26, 2019 2:28 am

hi Eeyore

I know you are not trying to upset anyone
I have been through your feelings
I still have them sometimes
but my treatment has been successful
and things are much better now
there are exciting things happening that bring me joy
and I never thought I would say that

alot of it is down to my advocate
keeping an eye on how my treatment is going

you sound like a lovely person
and a lovely name you have chosen for yourself
I think Eeore is my favourite Willie the Poo character

love n hugs Katyia

katyia
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Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby katyia » Tue Nov 26, 2019 2:29 am

hi Eeyore

I know you are not trying to upset anyone
I have been through your feelings
I still have them sometimes
but my treatment has been successful
and things are much better now
there are exciting things happening that bring me joy
and I never thought I would say that

alot of it is down to my advocate
keeping an eye on how my treatment is going

you sound like a lovely person
and a lovely name you have chosen for yourself
I think Eeore is my favourite Willie the Poo character

love n hugs Katyia

katyia
Posts: 286
Joined: Wed Jun 12, 2019 10:10 pm

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby katyia » Wed Nov 27, 2019 3:39 am

I did think you sounded nice
are you in the UK ?
because the company does my advocacy is called Pohwer
they are not in all parts of the country
but if you contact them, they can point you to similar organisations

its free of charge

also if you join other forums as well as this one
you will encounter more nice people
this board is quite quiet
but also very good

x x x

rsxo
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Joined: Mon Apr 24, 2017 4:12 pm

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby rsxo » Fri Nov 29, 2019 7:40 pm

Hey eeyore,

Stay strong, take things a day at a time. We're here with you through this, rain or shine x

Much love <3
RSxo <3

hyster
Posts: 227
Joined: Thu May 16, 2019 3:35 pm
Location: Coventry

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby hyster » Fri Nov 29, 2019 9:10 pm

ive wanted to die for over 30 years, tried twice at 18 and spent 5 days in intensive care 1 time.
i kinda made myself a promise after that, "id never try again while depressed".

also what helps me is that knowing others out there are in a way worse position than me and dealing with it "so i should be ashamed my 'petty' problems make me feel so bad / worthless".

something else that stuck in my mind is a documentary about suicide and the effects it has on the emergency services having to deal with the body and i dt want to mess up some1 else.

the above reasoning's above are an attempt at reverse phycology to stop myself killing myself.

hyster
Posts: 227
Joined: Thu May 16, 2019 3:35 pm
Location: Coventry

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby hyster » Fri Nov 29, 2019 11:32 pm

eeyore wrote:There's one thing more that I'd like to add I'd rather choose how I end my life and when etc rather than someone else ending my life for me if you see what I mean.


this says to me u have control issues, id guess some 1 (or more) had some form of control over u so u felt helpless and u feel the ultimate control is ur life to take or not.

i can understand the lack of control but for different reasons, for me no matter what i do it always seems to be wrong or i get way bad luck, i seem to have just enough luck to get by barely.

im learned years ago to expect the worst, u cant be surprised when it goes wrong then BUT u can get a nice surprise at times when it goes right

hyster
Posts: 227
Joined: Thu May 16, 2019 3:35 pm
Location: Coventry

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby hyster » Fri Nov 29, 2019 11:57 pm

i have an idea how u feel, if i could click my fingers and be gone i would. i searched the ways to do it, how to make poison ............................
i live a few 100 yards away from where my "best friend" killed himself on a railway line, thought being do the same, quick but messy.

but i always think, "not today, it cant get much worse so wait an see"

hyster
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Location: Coventry

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby hyster » Sat Nov 30, 2019 2:18 am

1 i can perfectly understand

as for 2, how do u know u will be happier after ?? who knows what is in store for us afterwards !!
what about family / friends ??

hyster
Posts: 227
Joined: Thu May 16, 2019 3:35 pm
Location: Coventry

Re: Don't want to live anymore

Postby hyster » Sat Nov 30, 2019 9:12 am

im in the same boat friends / family wise, got bday and xmas cards today "from dad".
last "friend" i had lost interest when i couldnt drive her around anymore.

still i keep thinking it cant get much worse and tomorrow be better, its the only way i can cope.


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