Hello lovely. You are talking to a survivor of depression, my attempts at suicide have only left me worse off. On thing I want you to know, there is always another day. No matter how awful and alone you feel at the worst points in your depression, you can always see another day. You are here on this forum because depression and suicide is a scary thing to face, but no matter what you do, just give the world one more day. We are all here because we have a battle to face. You are strong enough to come here and ask for that help. Talk to us. Let us know how we can be there and uplift you. Do not ever loose hope. There is always someone who can offer a helping hand.