Hi, thank you all for your messages, I can't be sectioned I am terribly scared of drs and hospitals. I don't even go to my daughters & sons appts H goes. Everything is getting worse right now & the thought that the school holidays are looming is more than I can take. I can't fight to be heard anymore, I have no fight left.
Thank you I will look for self help things. I have signed up with mind but dont speak on the phone and I can't see an email or forum like this on the mind site, still trying to understand the website . I think its only one sentence have been writing to samaritans, but feel bad taking up their time, I also spend my life checking to say if they have written back, I'm not sure when I will have reached my quota for how many times I can write to them. I just can't do this anymore, I don't see any other end to this. I have to be so careful what I say how I say it all the time. I can't understand how I got to this point again. I don't know how to stop feeling like this and I don't know how to be useful anymore I can't make a difference to anyones life. I'm going mad thinking it all through over over the more I do the more I panic, I feel like I have ust been in a car crash and can only sit and stare trying to understand. I don't want to do this anymore, I can't