Well its been a long time since I posted or supported anyone on here.
I'd like to say I've been well and things have been good, but it's all just the same or worse.
Everything and with more problems and crap 'professional' support.
Physical and MH the worst they've ever been possibly but that's a hard one to measure.
Really feel I have tried everything. And how I've tried and what I've had to go through to even get that help.
I can't tolerate 'life' like this, this trauma 24/7.
It's a pointless existence.
My suicidal feelings are a constant presence.
How long is it reasonable to say you have tried? Ask for some kind of eternal permission to give up on life?
I'm so very, very tired.
Why have I come back?
Maybe because people on here have some empathy, some enlightenment and some compassion.
I am at a total loss this evening and an OD seems the best option.