That is exactly what happened last time but it was partly my fault too. I decided to try to tackle my nightmare directly and just bloody go for it. I was in a mess and it felt like I might as well just go there as it couldn't get much worse. How wrong was I? It was much worse - loud, bright, frightening and totally overwhelming. I had an instant meltdown and it took the rest of the session for him to ground me and bring me back.
Tomorrow I think I have to take it steady and agree some ground rules and a safe place. I will never do what I did before, I need to break it down much more - a step at a time. Maybe one image at a time, I'm not sure.
I did think about abandoning the working on the nightmares and flashbacks and concentrating on the future but my cpn thinks I need to face them in order to move on. Bloody scary if you ask me lol!
So here goes - tomorrow is another day and hopefully I will cope better. I hope so
It's hard to keep a secret when it's written all over your body.
It makes you feel able to cope with life, while at the same time it's destroying you.