Sorry you are feeling so lonely - thought I would reply seeing as my name is Lonely2!
Recently I have been feeling really low and can relate to your feelings of being alone. I thought about what kind of things I enjoy doing and tried to find something to do around my hobbies/interests. So far I have:-
Joined a knitting group that meets every fortnight - I have met some lovely people and we have a laugh. I have also knitted things that I never would
Done an art class for a day - I painted 2 pictures using acrylic paints and found it really relaxing. I want to do some more classes
Volunteered at A race for life - however I didn't find this helpful. I was there all day and was a race Marshal. It was very lonely and noone really spoke to me.
Found a book group but I haven't been yet!!
You need to find things to do to be around people. I enjoy going to the library some times just to not be alone. I have also joined a gym and the exercise helps with my mood but it is not very social.
Look after yourself and stay safe xxx
It's hard to keep a secret when it's written all over your body.
It makes you feel able to cope with life, while at the same time it's destroying you.