Normally I can dismiss the feelings I get towards other people, the thoughts of wanting to severely hurt someone other than myself!! I can usually rationalise those, I know that I could get into a lot of trouble if I actually carried out what is in those thoughts!! Saying that, the thoughts don't go away!! Instead I hurt myself, no one really cares then!!
Tonight I am very wound up and I feel as if I could do someone some real serious damage! No one specifically in mind!! I have to stay away from everybody because I don't know that I can restrain myself appropriately! !
This is not a threat, I promise!! I just wanted to maybe talk myself down cos im really screwed up tightly and am frightened of what I might be capable of!!
Again I want to stress that this is NOT a threat!!
life is a lemon....and i want my money back..!!!