I'm sorry, tm.
I certainly didn't want to start an argument either and I agree with tm. Some members find it useful, but I also understand that others don't (or not all the time).
Maybe it isn't helping you at the moment, tm. That is okay, although I'm sorry you feel this way.
I don't want to say too much as I obviously don't know anything much about you or your situation. But I get feeling and thinking, even being sure it can't get better, only worse. because I've experienced that as well. We always have our reasons for feeling like this, because it isn't something we just do. Sometimes we're stuck in a stalemate for a long time. Sometimes there is only bad news, followed by more bad news. Sometimes it's the symptoms of our illnesses. There are many reasons. Whatever the reason, it is horrible.
I often feel things won't change or only get worse, if the circumstances don't change. Sometimes there are things we ourselves can change and sometimes we have to hope the system will change in a way that actually helps us.
I'm sorry, I didn't want to upset you any further. I can understand you're disillusioned and tired of it all. Still I hope and wish that things improve for you. You deserve so much more than this.
Ever tried? Ever failed? No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.