Hi Zardos. Sorry to hear you're feeling so awful today. I'm not sure what A&E would do for you but at least you'd have people around you and they'd stop you from doing anything you don't want to do. If you can't handle going there, do you have any friends whose house you could visit? or maybe go for a walk? Just something so that you're out of the house and not alone with your thoughts.
Take care of yourself Z.
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long