I am sad you are ill and wish I could make it better for you but I cant.
Well, as a new person (suspect troll and all that - as everyone keeps hinting at - must wear a bell round my neck), I am sorry you are having such a crap time, and it seems as though it will never end. Please don't use it as an excuse to lash out and hurt people. Speaking myself,as someone who has suffered for nearly sixty years from pretty shitty things both as a survivor of abuse and as someone with MH difficulties. They are only a part of me, they dont define me, I wont let them and thats my struggle
You are a mental health worker, and proud of your work and abilities,and yet you posted a truly offensive poem, which includes threats to kill.( It does, read it again.
I know that you have deleted it, thanks for that, but I have a copy at home - do quite like most of J.C-C)
It made me feel physically sick reading it here, and in the context of certain people here, and I am no stranger to GID or trans issues. and I have not agreed this in a pm or whatever people are on about.
I dont know who is working who on here, but it is coming across that there a problem here with trans people or something? Why?
I didnt join this site to read TxxT. (Not a very anarcho syndicalist word by the way.) Whatever happened to mutual aid?
So I am sorry that you are ill , but I am saddened that another person justifies your behaviour even when you have had the goodness to realise what is happening yourself.
I am not condemning you, I have been well out of order myself when very unwell but have learned to take myself out of a situation until I know I am a bit more aware. All you can do is try I know.
You must be able to do it, otherwise you wouldnt hold down such a responsible job.
Sincerest good wishes to you and hope things resolve for everyone here, please dont let recent events control you, as then the wrong people win, and you are all supposed to be the good guys.