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Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Wed Mar 21, 2012 11:31 pm
by isabelledefrance
i answered you on your other post which seems to be the same as this one! x

Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2012 12:35 am
by Aleshadxcherylc
Oh my gosh I read the first post of this thread and I still feel the same as I did back then why I am so pathetic that I can't get over it
Sorry guys im really trying ! Obviously not hard enough Im reading all the threads and comments you have all put I thank everyone who commented on that day and thereafter too
Still wish to die so please take me :cry: :cry: :cry:
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Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Mon Apr 30, 2012 3:32 pm
by Aleshadxcherylc
I just wish it would all end now I can't cope and especially without my cbt Thespist I went to counselling which is just free and general on Friday I can't connect to her and my barriers are up its distressing eveytime I talk about my cbt therapist to her I breakdown I'm pathetic and a failure
It's just not her sitting there

Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 5:47 pm
by Aleshadxcherylc
This time last year it all started with cbt and my therapist
Still hurts and I f*****d it up as always
:( :cry:

Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Thu Oct 18, 2012 9:30 pm
by Aleshadxcherylc
Help !
I hate this
Want to die
Feels low and hopeless I fail eveything

I can't take much more

Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Thu Oct 18, 2012 10:43 pm
by belle
Hi Katie.
I remember you and I am so sorry you are still struggling so much.
Please keep posting if it helps so people know how you are feeling.
Take care.
xxx

Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Fri Oct 19, 2012 7:54 am
by Aleshadxcherylc
Thanks I wrote a longer message on the new thread I did last night
I want to die can you help me
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Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Fri Oct 19, 2012 11:21 am
by belle
Hi there.
How about coming up with a list of reasons for and against staying alive?
Remember you need to think it through hard because your illness will want to have its say and could distort the balance.
Please take care.
xxx

Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Fri Oct 19, 2012 7:26 pm
by Aleshadxcherylc
Ill see how therapy goes on Wednesday
Doubt much she asked me from 1 to 10 1 being worse I said 1
I'm fat ugly there is no reason to stay alive I wish I could but my family have ha so many deaths and gone through a lot so ill just continue to be a robot
I don't know how I'm getting through each day every day is a chore and draining having a mask saying I'm fine
I don't deserve to be happy either
There isn't much point staying Alive I've come to the end of the road
I'm so selfish it's me me me me
How are you ?
Wish someone could kill me then I wouldn't have the choice
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Re: MY WORST NIGHTMARE NOW LOST HER *MASSIVE TRIG*

Posted: Tue Oct 23, 2012 10:42 pm
by Aleshadxcherylc
:cry: :cry: really dont know what to do
I think ive contacted the therapist i used to have for CBT but that was my intention dont know if its her as she doesnt have a picture but she says she works privatetly and in the NHS.
its a year since i started with her i said i emailed her sayying what was going on now and that I would benefit from CBT in the future but not now when the pyscotherapy is over i asked would she see me again if this was the right person.
i hope so not for the reasons you think as i understand them now but for the good therapist she was.
my fear its not her after all of this or i get rejected or ignored :cry: :cry:
wish i was dead would be so much easier
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