i get all of what you're saying but because i got attatched to her i hope i didnt make her feel awkward in any way and the way i came across to her obviously wasnt very good, but if i hadnt have done that they might have given me a second chance? she was a trainee so she might not have expereinced it before so she might think i was werid and mad to get attatched to her.
Because bascially i lost my grandad whislt a couple of weeks into CBT so i went off track and thats when the attatchment really started then i found out the CBT was time limited then i panicked and everything overtook me my own fault i know! i remember coming out of the first session really positive and was like yes this is going to help and ive wasted it!. If i hadnt got attached and just messed up by the CBT going wayside then they probably would have given me another chance hadnt they?. so then i would be starting again on the road to recovery and i would be getting better, i dont understand why they wont let me have the other sessions i was still owed with her anyway which obviously means im odd and they think im pocessive and got serious issues because i got attatched! because otherwise they would have let me back wouldnt they.?.I've got a telephone call with her in 2 weeks don't know weather to ask these questions as my mind is going overdrive and it's making me go mad. I just feel because of the attachment she's going to think I'm a weird mad girl just hope I didn't make her feel awkward and the way I came across. but they obviously dont want to give me another shot because im attatched to her so they think ive got serious issues obviously, but if i ahd another chance i would know what i could and couldnt do i wish i knew what i'd known now before starting CBT then i would have got better.
I just wish they would give me another chance i could understand if they gave me 2 chances but to not even let me have another go i think is really unfair ive got an 8-10 week wait for pyscotherapy and i now have no support!.
if it wasnt for my stupidity i would be going to see her right now as we still had about 8 weeks which is a long time! i saw her on tuesdays at 1.30 and we'd be working on getting me better right this second! but i screwed up because i got attatched!