She is amazing which is the reason why this is going to be so difficult!. i mean if im crying about her now whats going to happen on session 20!. She noticed straight away that i was in a panic attack she took my stuff straight off me and sat me down and begun calming me down! i was so embarssed!.She said afterwards dont worry many people have had panic attacks when they've been in sessions its ok!.
Just wish it was private CBT because then it could last for however long i want it to last for!.
Shes literally just rung me now saying the crisis team wont ring you, you have to ring them!, i said to her also thank you to her for helping me get through my panic attack.
I do write things down a lot i gave her some samritains emails ive sent and they've sent back to me about her and some poems of how im feeling ive copied and pasted on the internet!. and ive written special letters just to her to tell her how im feeling, "this is not a feeling like love because im not a lesbian its just like a friend",Im going to see another GP not my normal one as hes not avilable for ages, so on friday im going to explain the situation and see if he can help me with the way im feeling about her and maybe sort something out like extra sessions with her.
As you can tell i couldnt go to another therapist for how amazing she has been to me so far!.
I'll have a look at the book and let her know ive been to so many councillers/therapists and ive never felt the strong feelings ie:just someone listening be there".
Hope your sessions are helping you, i'll look at the book and see.
I honestly cant cope i know its sounds pathetic i would be better off dead thanks for your kind words!.
How am i going to cope till next tuesday!.
And the tears come streaming down your face,when you lose something you cant replace
Till now, I always got by on my own, I never really cared until I met you
No-one ever comes close to you